It has been. [ he will be honest with that. ] It's not even a set of powers that's close to what I'm used to is the thing. Trying to practice has been...difficult.
[ for reasons he doesn't disclose. instead, he continues letting himself swing back and forth as he registers that. ]
...so your job is not only to be a digital cop but also a therapist? [ idly. he will eventually, maybe, figure out she means ryuki specifically but he does not at this moment. ] That sounds like it can be hard if the people you're trying to help have a lot to work through.
I actually need to practice what I can do more, now I think about it. Maybe we should both practice? It’s less tedious if you’re sharing the suffering.
[ she’s back to swinging. at this point they’re like… almost there with nico knowing she’s an AI, but not fully there so… she has less concerns about saying the next part. ]
It’s what I’m meant to do. And it’s what I want to do. It’s not entirely like sticking to a set parameter, that’s just basic model stuff. If I didn’t want to, no one could make me.
[ she has her oath, after all. but there were always limitations to how she could keep him safe. ]
I don't mind spotting you for practice. It can be helpful to have someone observe and suggest ideas. [ he does not say anything about practicing himself for some reason.
he hasn't quite jumped to the AI conclusion but it's a close thing. he's aware she's not human, aware she's attached to certain things, and he can sort of piece it together. it's why he doesn't mind listening. ]
So like...having a set of instructions, but if you don't think it's suitable and something you wanted to fulfill you could override them. [ that makes some sense. he's quiet again. ] You care a lot then.
[ if she could avoid it, but she's doing so anyway. ]
[ she does kinda giggle at that. ] It’s just a suggestion, you don’t have to look like I’m cornering you.
I guess. As far as I’m concerned, I’m doing what I want — but it’s more like… you have a job or a responsibility. Maybe you didn’t plan to end up in that job, but you like it and you want to keep doing it. Something like that? [ maybe having the base programming to do something isn’t quite the same, but it’s the best she can think of. ] Or like it’s just a part of who you are, personality wise. You have the parts and pieces of your personality, but slowly you develop that personality as you grow?
[ there's a sheepish grin. ] It's not...it's complicated. I know I need to practice but it's going to take time.
[ this analogy works, actually. he gets the concept she's trying to explain and so he nods. yeah. something like that. ]
...no, I think I understand. It's a make-up you have, but you then start to lean into it and it becomes more important to you the more you realize you're actually good at it or it suits you. I think I get the point. Sorry. I get it was kind of a weird question to ask.
Same though. It’s not like I had powers before, and I’m finding it difficult. You’ve probably got to unlearn muscle memory and stuff like that.
[ she shrugs. ]
It’s not like I was offended by it. My situation’s a bit different, that’s probably clear enough. But ultimately, I help out because I want to. If I didn’t want to, you’d know about it.
The amount of times I've flexed my fingers trying to pull someone out of the ground and getting nothing has not been small. [ dry. ] Don't worry. Even those of us who had powers before are making a mess of things. Unless you're like Nimona or Will.
...good way to look at it then. I'll keep that in mind. [ a pause. ] It sounds as though whoever you're working with is lucky to have you though.
If the means by which they use their powers are similar too, then they really hit the jackpot. [ she can hack! but hacking out of a human body is a whole other thing. ]
[ hehe. ] I know. [ and so does he, shakes fist. ]
That's what I said. It's both fortunate for them and something for me to continue being jealous of ever day. [ sort of a joke. he does not continue about ryuki and tama that he doesn't know is ryuki because she seems to know what's up. but he is settled by it, somehow. ]
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[ for reasons he doesn't disclose. instead, he continues letting himself swing back and forth as he registers that. ]
...so your job is not only to be a digital cop but also a therapist? [ idly. he will eventually, maybe, figure out she means ryuki specifically but he does not at this moment. ] That sounds like it can be hard if the people you're trying to help have a lot to work through.
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[ she’s back to swinging. at this point they’re like… almost there with nico knowing she’s an AI, but not fully there so… she has less concerns about saying the next part. ]
It’s what I’m meant to do. And it’s what I want to do. It’s not entirely like sticking to a set parameter, that’s just basic model stuff. If I didn’t want to, no one could make me.
[ she has her oath, after all. but there were always limitations to how she could keep him safe. ]
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I don't mind spotting you for practice. It can be helpful to have someone observe and suggest ideas. [ he does not say anything about practicing himself for some reason.
he hasn't quite jumped to the AI conclusion but it's a close thing. he's aware she's not human, aware she's attached to certain things, and he can sort of piece it together. it's why he doesn't mind listening. ]
So like...having a set of instructions, but if you don't think it's suitable and something you wanted to fulfill you could override them. [ that makes some sense. he's quiet again. ] You care a lot then.
[ if she could avoid it, but she's doing so anyway. ]
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I guess. As far as I’m concerned, I’m doing what I want — but it’s more like… you have a job or a responsibility. Maybe you didn’t plan to end up in that job, but you like it and you want to keep doing it. Something like that? [ maybe having the base programming to do something isn’t quite the same, but it’s the best she can think of. ] Or like it’s just a part of who you are, personality wise. You have the parts and pieces of your personality, but slowly you develop that personality as you grow?
I don’t know. I don’t think too hard on it.
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[ this analogy works, actually. he gets the concept she's trying to explain and so he nods. yeah. something like that. ]
...no, I think I understand. It's a make-up you have, but you then start to lean into it and it becomes more important to you the more you realize you're actually good at it or it suits you. I think I get the point. Sorry. I get it was kind of a weird question to ask.
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[ she shrugs. ]
It’s not like I was offended by it. My situation’s a bit different, that’s probably clear enough. But ultimately, I help out because I want to. If I didn’t want to, you’d know about it.
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...good way to look at it then. I'll keep that in mind. [ a pause. ] It sounds as though whoever you're working with is lucky to have you though.
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[ hehe. ] I know. [ and so does he, shakes fist. ]
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...I'm not ready for that. [ plainly stated, but he does slow his swing. ] But another time, maybe. When I have to.
...are you staying here?
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For the moment, yeah. I think I will.
[ and then i guess they swing for a while. wheeee. ]