I'm trying. [ sincerely. ] I'm...really, really trying. It's only a few days and then it'll all be fine again.
[ ...hopefully. he's leaning into her. ] ...I think I keep thinking about other people who were only supposed to be gone for a few days and never came home. I know that's not the case here, but...unlearning old responses has been a pain.
Definitely. Whoever said time heals all wounds was never hurt deeply enough, I think. [ he's quiet. ] ...you may as well say the other thing. If you want.
[ a gentle bonk of his head to her shoulder. yeah. he is the same. he gets it. ]
Mmh. [ it's brief acknowledgement and then he's moving on. ] You kind of have to wonder if they're all things you can unlearn or if there are some habits you're stuck with forever because you keep being proven they're true. These days I'm better at believing with effort that things can be retaught in a different way.
...not always. Sometimes I think it's impossible or that I'm stupid for still thinking it's possible. It always depends on other people, and that's where most of the trouble starts.
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[ ...hopefully. he's leaning into her. ] ...I think I keep thinking about other people who were only supposed to be gone for a few days and never came home. I know that's not the case here, but...unlearning old responses has been a pain.
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[she tucks his hair behind his ear.]
It's hard to... [she pauses, and then stops. changes tracks.] Time's the only thing that helps that I think, and not even time helps, sometimes.
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[like that they're not all going to eventually leave you. but she's not getting into that. she knows he's the same way, anyway.]
That time thing again. I've been around a while so. Old habits. Like you said.
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Mmh. [ it's brief acknowledgement and then he's moving on. ] You kind of have to wonder if they're all things you can unlearn or if there are some habits you're stuck with forever because you keep being proven they're true. These days I'm better at believing with effort that things can be retaught in a different way.
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... Hopefully you can keep believing that.
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