[ misfits finding misfits. maybe to nimona, now, she may see why nico talks to her the way he does. or maybe he'd always do that just because nico is very much himself. despite what the world saw him as and what he projected for most of his life, deep down he was still someone who cared too much about others and only wanted to be cared about in return.
a weird thought, really. but she says that it's stupid that being gay is unacceptable and he laughs a little, slightly watery and slightly amused because yeah? yeah it is stupid, and he knows it's stupid now, but it's still something to work through. and she continues...and he scritches her ears. ]
...if I didn't exist, I wouldn't have gotten to meet you. And that's something I'm really, really happy about. So I guess I'm glad I exist, too.
[her ear flicks, but she lets out a little shivery sigh, the kind you let out when all the adrenaline has finally left you. she kneads at his hand gently, no claws.]
It was a good thing you were born. [she tells him, firm.] ... And I'm glad Jason helped you figure yourself out.
[a beat.] I think - I think at this point I don't know what I'd have done if I didn't know you. So I guess he can get thanks from someone who never even knew him at all.
...he would've liked you. [ he says this with certainty. partially because nico likes her, but also because jason would've likely seen the potential in nimona, too. ] I...felt his death when it happened. By the time I got confirmation from Apollo, and by the time I tried to search myself, I couldn't find him. So I can only assume he tried for rebirth, but...I'll still thank him for everything as long as I remember him.
[ more to the point though: ] And anyway, now you can't get rid of me even if you tried, so.
Can you... [she starts, kind of curiously, but she trails off. she doesn't want to pry about his abilities and stuff - smallminded questions - so instead, she just shifts so she can curl up half against his neck and the crook of his shoulder.]
I might try. [she tells him, in a sort of exhausted way. it's maybe unexpectedly honest, but. she's really just too tired from having half a panic attack to not just be like i will get scared again.]
I know. [ softly. because he does get it? he's tried to push people away so, so many times even when he didn't want to. even the people he wanted close. even right up until the middle of the battle at camp half-blood as gaea was rising, he tried to push everyone away and run. ] You're just gonna have to deal with me chasing after you then.
[ because sometimes that's what it takes. someone reaching a hand out when you're lost in your own darkness. he's not about to abandon her now. or ever.
but...he pets her from where she's curled up. ]
Can I what? [ his own curiosity drives him to ask. he figures if this is something he can't answer, nimona will understand. ]
[it's reassuring to know that someone wants to chase. that someone could see all the worst parts of her and still want her around. she's not sure she's ever had that before, ever.
she swallows hard, when he says it, but doesn't answer. it's a thank you, nonetheless.]
Oh. Um. [...] Can you always sense when people you know die, I guess.
[ he laughs, even if it's more reactionary than because he finds it funny. ]
Yeah, it's...[ mm. ] I'm used to it. I kind sort of dull it out so it's not always constant, but...it was nightmares when I was a kid that told me Bianca was gone, and with Jason it just felt like this constant ringing in my ears. It's just part of being a child of Hades. Kind of like being able to sense someone's life force or if there's a possibility they may die soon.
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a weird thought, really. but she says that it's stupid that being gay is unacceptable and he laughs a little, slightly watery and slightly amused because yeah? yeah it is stupid, and he knows it's stupid now, but it's still something to work through. and she continues...and he scritches her ears. ]
...if I didn't exist, I wouldn't have gotten to meet you. And that's something I'm really, really happy about. So I guess I'm glad I exist, too.
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It was a good thing you were born. [she tells him, firm.] ... And I'm glad Jason helped you figure yourself out.
[a beat.] I think - I think at this point I don't know what I'd have done if I didn't know you. So I guess he can get thanks from someone who never even knew him at all.
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...he would've liked you. [ he says this with certainty. partially because nico likes her, but also because jason would've likely seen the potential in nimona, too. ] I...felt his death when it happened. By the time I got confirmation from Apollo, and by the time I tried to search myself, I couldn't find him. So I can only assume he tried for rebirth, but...I'll still thank him for everything as long as I remember him.
[ more to the point though: ] And anyway, now you can't get rid of me even if you tried, so.
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Can you... [she starts, kind of curiously, but she trails off. she doesn't want to pry about his abilities and stuff - smallminded questions - so instead, she just shifts so she can curl up half against his neck and the crook of his shoulder.]
I might try. [she tells him, in a sort of exhausted way. it's maybe unexpectedly honest, but. she's really just too tired from having half a panic attack to not just be like i will get scared again.]
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[ because sometimes that's what it takes. someone reaching a hand out when you're lost in your own darkness. he's not about to abandon her now. or ever.
but...he pets her from where she's curled up. ]
Can I what? [ his own curiosity drives him to ask. he figures if this is something he can't answer, nimona will understand. ]
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she swallows hard, when he says it, but doesn't answer. it's a thank you, nonetheless.]
Oh. Um. [...] Can you always sense when people you know die, I guess.
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...it's not just people I know. But yeah. It, um. Manifests differently depending who they are. How close they are to me. That sort of thing.
[ so that's fun. ]
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That sounds like it sucks.
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Yeah, it's...[ mm. ] I'm used to it. I kind sort of dull it out so it's not always constant, but...it was nightmares when I was a kid that told me Bianca was gone, and with Jason it just felt like this constant ringing in my ears. It's just part of being a child of Hades. Kind of like being able to sense someone's life force or if there's a possibility they may die soon.