You and Sabo kind of didn't have a choice but to take care of yourselves, I think. And that's impressive. [ the will to survive in a world that doesn't care takes a huge amount of strength. ] ...I started out at that camp after we were pulled out of Westover Hall because Grover had found us. I left after a few weeks, but I didn't have anywhere else to go. It took a while to make my way back home but...I'm glad I've got it, too.
[ he wouldn't change anything now. but he also hates this story, because of course he knew sabo had died. he just didn't know the how. ]
...it's a weird, conflicting feeling for someone to say "I'm glad you and Luffy escaped" knowing the other piece of you didn't. [ "i'm sorry. this wasn't fair." ] But why did it even matter if it was outside of the kingdom? If they really wanted to get rid of everything they could have at least let people leave first.
[ but the way he says it is like "but that's reasonable and wouldn't have been an option, huh." ]
[ he kind of shrugs, because he doesn't think he did anything that impressive as a kid, and more important: ]
... They just let you leave?
[ he's glad nico has it now, but. wasn't he like. ten. dadan let him leave but the bandits still had someone watching over them. and also dadan never wanted him in the first place. they'd brought them there on purpose, so why...
unfortunately he gets distracted because he laughs at nico's comment. there's nothing funny about it, but: ]
The people were just as much part of the trash for them, Nico. They'd let them in during the day to sell their wares, but no one ever tried to stay the night in the kingdom. They'd throw you right back out with the trash.
...son of Hades, remember? And demigods disappear all the time. I think maybe for a while...[ ...he doesn't voice that he thinks maybe for a while they thought it wasn't worth finding him until they realized he could be used against them for kronos's army. ] I'm good at not being found when I don't want to be, and after a while I went somewhere nobody would find me.
[ but he frowns harder at that. ] So they were just giving them false hope the entire time until they decided it wasn't worth keeping up the farce. Just because they could.
[ a noise of agreement because yeah? eat the rich. he says, as the son of the god of riches. he's more than aware that it's rude to tell ace these things when his worm brain might not remember, but he thinks it's ruder not to answer either. it's what you do when people are feeling unstable. you talk to them and treat them normally to try and guide them along. ]
...three years? Give or take. [ that sounds about right, but: ] After a while, I did return to my father's house in the Underworld to get him to agree to join the other Olympians in the war against Kronos. I didn't really go back to Camp until after that. And then I left again a couple of weeks later. I never liked staying very long knowing I didn't actually belong there.
[ he seems to read the look but he just sort of frowns like "it's fine, don't be mad." ]
Yeah. I do. [ he at least sounds confident about that part. he doesn't think ace remembers this memory he shared a few days ago. ] Will sort of laid into me after the war against Gaea that I did actually belong there and I had people who were interested in actually having me around. He was obviously only talking about himself but...there were others. And things got better, and now...it's hard to think about being away from there for longer than I have to be.
[ he does not remember the memory but he also barely remembers how they got on this subject it's fine his brain soup. he kind of tilts his head back and hums ]
Will's good. [ ... more words, ace. ] He was right. You deserve a home.
[ this is sort of related to being loved and accepted and missing home, sure ]
He's...[ he goes quiet because he's not really shy about how he feels about will, but at the same time it's still something that deserves some reflecting. ] ...it took time to accept it. But between him and Jason, it stuck.
[ it's fine, because ace and his soup brain can have panels that decide now is a nice time to show up. ]
[ ace is terrible and his brain is soup but the memory ends and he's laughing softly. it's a little worrying, but he knows they wound up out and fine, so he can just laugh about-- ]
...some people may feel like it's unnecessary, but given the amount of times I've almost lost him even recently I think perhaps we're both justified here. [ he does not need to explain this to ace.] Plus there are things about this place that...really make things more complicated.
Not in so many words but there have been people who've expressed frustrations with it before. [ he doesn't seem to want to elaborate either. ] Which I get. I don't really blame them.
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[ he wouldn't change anything now. but he also hates this story, because of course he knew sabo had died. he just didn't know the how. ]
...it's a weird, conflicting feeling for someone to say "I'm glad you and Luffy escaped" knowing the other piece of you didn't. [ "i'm sorry. this wasn't fair." ] But why did it even matter if it was outside of the kingdom? If they really wanted to get rid of everything they could have at least let people leave first.
[ but the way he says it is like "but that's reasonable and wouldn't have been an option, huh." ]
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... They just let you leave?
[ he's glad nico has it now, but. wasn't he like. ten. dadan let him leave but the bandits still had someone watching over them. and also dadan never wanted him in the first place. they'd brought them there on purpose, so why...
unfortunately he gets distracted because he laughs at nico's comment. there's nothing funny about it, but: ]
The people were just as much part of the trash for them, Nico. They'd let them in during the day to sell their wares, but no one ever tried to stay the night in the kingdom. They'd throw you right back out with the trash.
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...son of Hades, remember? And demigods disappear all the time. I think maybe for a while...[ ...he doesn't voice that he thinks maybe for a while they thought it wasn't worth finding him until they realized he could be used against them for kronos's army. ] I'm good at not being found when I don't want to be, and after a while I went somewhere nobody would find me.
[ but he frowns harder at that. ] So they were just giving them false hope the entire time until they decided it wasn't worth keeping up the farce. Just because they could.
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[ he sort of shrugs like that explains anything, because he's over talking about that he is much more concerned with: ]
How long were you out here? On your own.
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...three years? Give or take. [ that sounds about right, but: ] After a while, I did return to my father's house in the Underworld to get him to agree to join the other Olympians in the war against Kronos. I didn't really go back to Camp until after that. And then I left again a couple of weeks later. I never liked staying very long knowing I didn't actually belong there.
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... Do you think you belong there now?
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Yeah. I do. [ he at least sounds confident about that part. he doesn't think ace remembers this memory he shared a few days ago. ] Will sort of laid into me after the war against Gaea that I did actually belong there and I had people who were interested in actually having me around. He was obviously only talking about himself but...there were others. And things got better, and now...it's hard to think about being away from there for longer than I have to be.
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Will's good. [ ... more words, ace. ] He was right. You deserve a home.
[ this is sort of related to being loved and accepted and missing home, sure ]
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He's...[ he goes quiet because he's not really shy about how he feels about will, but at the same time it's still something that deserves some reflecting. ] ...it took time to accept it. But between him and Jason, it stuck.
[ it's fine, because ace and his soup brain can have panels that decide now is a nice time to show up. ]
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Sappy. You guys are really sappy. [ teasing. ]
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Will's incredibly sappy, yes, and it's a fact I never let him live down. [ you are both sappy you fucking fool. ]
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You're just as bad, though.
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...but he does quiet again. ]
I'm not always great at showing affection. [ so. ] Overdoing it sometimes balances it out for him. That's all.
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...some people may feel like it's unnecessary, but given the amount of times I've almost lost him even recently I think perhaps we're both justified here. [ he does not need to explain this to ace.] Plus there are things about this place that...really make things more complicated.
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Tell me. I'll kick their ass.
[ he would not say it this bluntly and sulkily if it wasn't for the soup brain but here we are ]
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You don't think I could kick their ass myself? [ ace your brain is soup. but he's flattered (?) ]
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If you remember this conversation later, then I'll tell you. How about that?
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Hey.
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