PC: ACE 💀

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...but it'd be worse not to believe it and have something actually happen. Just like with all the other notes. [ ... ] That's...you really didn't even have a choice then.

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... There's always a choice, Nico. [ even if it doesn't seem like it, ace knew he was making one. just like he knew he was making one when he decided to not hide his murder at all. ]

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...I know, but at the same time I don't think it's a real choice to force someone's hand with threats. Of course you could have chosen not to act. But then it's damning whole worlds and people instead of just one. But by going through with it...this happens.

[ so it's not fair to anybody. it's not fair to sigrun, it's not fair to ace, it's not fair to them who ace and sigrun are leaving behind...nobody. ]

[selfimmolation]

... Maybe. Maybe none of the threats were even real. [ it's tiring to even admit it, and he sort of breathes out lowly ] There weren't any good choices, but I still made mine knowing the consequences.

[ to himself and to others. which is why-- ]

I'm sorry.

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[ ...he just pulls his knees to his chest, resting his chin on them to look at him again. ]

We don't get the luxury of good choices here. And the ones we do get to make...[ are so easy to lose. but he doesn't finish that sentence, something old and tired in his expression. ] What're you sorry for?

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... I know I hurt all of you guys by doing this.

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[ ............ ]

...I'm not sure what would hurt worse. Losing you like we lost Reigen, or losing you tomorrow like we're going to.

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... Well, I don't think Sigrun ever really had a chance against me. [ THAT'S RUDE AND CONCEITED, but; ] I think the method isn't what matters. It's just not having someone around that hurts.

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[ he looks past ace at a point on the wall. ]

I can't say one way or another. [ about fighting. but... ] ...lucky me, I've had practice. So I can at least...try to help everyone tomorrow.

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...

[ cool he just looks sad and guilty about it, looking down ]

...I... Nico. [ a little helplessly. ]

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[ he seems to realize he overstepped that one because he's immediately backtracking. ]

Sorry, no, that's not...I didn't mean it like that. I just meant...it'll be really hard on some people and I...

[ well no nothing he says is going to be good, he's just fumbling instead. ]

[selfimmolation]

[ ACE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT'S WORST BEING TOLD IT'S GONNA BE HARD ON SOME PEOPLE OR THAT NICO IS GOING TO SAY IT ISN'T HARD ON HIM

oh man what if it isn't..... no not the time worms ]

... I get it.

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[ there's a long pause. ]

...I don't want you to go. [ just to make that clear. ] But I don't want you to feel guilty about it when your hands were tied.

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... I'm a pretty messed up guy. [ he admits that softly, looking at the floor like it's a confession ] Even though I should feel guilty, and I don't want you guys hurt... Knowing you'd want me around enough to be upset by it, it kind of makes me happy.

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[ he ends up laughing, even if it sounds watery and kind of broken. ]

You're such an idiot. You and Reigen both, I don't understand how either of you could ever think we wouldn't want you here with us. Or what you actually mean to people. It's not like we aren't all pretty messed up either. [ ... ] It's exactly why it hurts though, yeah.

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... He called me out on it, you know. A few times. And in his letter. [ hypocrisy!!! ] You guys... have been the best part of this place. You know?

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Like I said, he's stupid, too, for never fully realizing how much we needed him. [ ... ] His letter was...hard to read, but I think he wanted to make sure we all knew in the end. But it's the same for me. This place is...awful and I want to go home but...you guys have been worth it. Figuring everything out, trying to find a way together. I didn't think...I'd meet other people who understood the way you guys do.

[ and that's maybe why it's so hard now. ]

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... You'll get home. I know you guys will figure it out.

[ because he thinks will and nico definitely, definitely deserve to go home. but. ]

A bunch of misfits ending up together... Pops would probably find it funny. It's the same thing he did.

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And that turned out pretty alright for him. [ it gave ace a home. but he stops again, and this time he's staring right at him. ]

Don't say that like we're giving up on you guys already though. We're not leaving anyone behind, even if we're separated for a little while.

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... I know you wouldn't. And I'm not saying you should, either. [ he tilts his head a little. he'd be the same way, is the thing, so can he really blame nico for not wanting to think of the alternative? ] ... If there is another side, and there's anything I can do from there, I'll try too.

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I know you will. [ because he knows ace is similar to himself that way. neither of them are great at giving up when they probably should. ] ...if you're really going where the rest are...you'll have Reigen. And Norma and Chiemi are there. Mika, too. Sigrun will likely help if you ask, even after all of this. And make sure to take care of Whisper. And see if Rocket's behaving.

[ there are others, too, but...you know.]

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... I'll keep track of everyone. [ if it's a thing, which he has trouble believing, but he won't share that. ] And... I'll see about those newspaper letters, too.

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Thank you. [ but...he bows his head again. ] Not that it matters at all right now. None of that matters to me. You're still here, so...I want you to be able to spend time with us while you can. Even if it's still back here.

[ bookends, really. ]

[selfimmolation]

... It feels a little fitting, even if it's not where I'd want to spend that time.

[ he didn't need to say it but he did anyway. he looks through his pockets and. oh. hm... ]

Hey. Can I ask you a favor? [ he holds out the little sabo tamagotchi for nico to take ] Hold onto him for me? I know he's just a toy of something that wasn't real, but... I kind of got attached.

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Guess we should just be glad they allow visitors, huh? I mean not that I think any of us would be stopped, but--

[ he does not get to continue that thought because. he. knows what that is? he knows what that is, and i knew you were going to give it to me, you asshole. he's pausing entirely...but he'll take the sabogotchi anyway to cradle in both palms a little sadly. ]

...it was real enough. So...yeah, obviously. I'll take good care of him so he'll be waiting here when you come back.