Yeah... if there's a gap, then it could draw someone's attention. Would you try and break down a closed door, or go for the one that was already slightly propped open?
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It'd be worth asking. Did we ask the leaders at all...?
You and I both know the answer to that and why, exactly, that's the problem. [ ...but he shakes his head. ]
I didn't think to ask them about that part specifically. And I got kind of busy over the weekend and haven't had a chance. Maybe I'll ask Phoenix if they're not mad at me.
Hmm. I’ll try and remember to ask them before next week. Especially if this does happen again. [ … ? ] Why would they be mad at you? Because of the jail thing?
No, I don't think they'd hate me either. It's more like...[ he frowns suddenly. ] It's stupid, never mind. I'm going to apologize later and if they don't accept it that's all I can do.
Yeah, but if you're worrying about this, as well as all the other things you're going to burn out. You don't have to do and worry about all this by yourself, you know.
[ binch she has YEARS of experience with dark haired idiots who try and take on everything alone. ]
[ he just. stares at her and raises an eyebrow. that may or may not be the reason they gave him the hero name burnout. and by they i mean me. that is the reason.
anyway he focuses on giving himself a little more of a push to swing. ]
And now you're starting to sound a lot like my doctor. [ faintly amused, and obviously kidding. ] But I know. It's...a thing I'm still working on.
[ good news nico. she pulls her "abis granted" mental health support credentials and smacks them so hard on the table it cracks. she's a pro at taking care of stupid dark haired boys she's fond of in varying degrees.
she does not actually slam her crayon drawn diploma on any table, it doesn't exist.
she does however stare back like yeah? and she's domina and she hasn't tied up a single person the whole time she's been here. break the mould, kiddo. ]
I do have mental health support functions. But good. It's always baby steps.
[ tama your diploma. anyway she says "functions" and he's like starting to figure she's very human-like but more advanced so he lets it slide. if she wants to ever explain she can. right now he hears her and there's a little huff that's half-amused and half-annoyed. ]
Tama, I've talked about my mental health more in the last six months than I have in my entire life. It's kind of exhausting. [ yeah that happens when you have ptsd anxiety depression and etc, nico. ] I don't know if addressing it more here is going to help with what we're trying to fix about our situation. At least when it comes to the small stuff.
I'm just saying, most of my impromptu, awkwardly timed naps have nothing to do with my mental stability. [ he does not clarify. but: ] ...the talking part isn't really easy, you know.
Necromancy, technically. [ also yeah she hit it on the head. ] I don't...like vulnerability, no. Even from people I know almost expect it from me. Having to explain things is always complicated.
Everything in my profile is true, even if some things are missing. But if I use my powers too much all at once or on something really big it kind of drains me until I can recharge. Usually by napping it off or refueling. [ the amount of times he just passes out inconveniently. ]
...it isn't fair not to try in this instance. But trying here with people I've just met seems a little...weird? We all barely know each other still. I don't want anything used against us.
... Osteokinesis? I was kinda joking about the spooky scary skeletons thing. [ he's just a sleepy lil guy. ]
Fair. But we are going through a situation I don't think many people will ever even think of. Trauma bonding's a real thing.
If you're not comfortable talking to us though, you're not on your own here, right? And while they're a stranger too, your leader's a pretty safe bet I think. They have an invested interest in you being safe and healthy, given you're currently their charge.
I've been training for years, it's one of the things I'm better at. [ spooky scary skeletons...
anyway it's not like tama is wrong about any of that given the way nico is watching her, but instead of agreeing just yet there's a low hum of thought. ]
You're a pretty big advocate of this mental health thing aren't you? [ interesting. again she is not wrong but now he's more curious about that instead of continuing to hint about how mentally unstable he can get sometimes. ]
If they hadn't taken my powers I could show you. It's pretty easy now. I can summon full skeletons to do whatever I need them to, or it can just be bones to be shaped however I want. Same with ghosts and zombies.
[ he is very normal. but he continues to think this over. ]
...it's important to the people you're trying to help, or to you?
So they took one set of powers from you, and gave you another one entirely. That must be weird to adjust to. [ and boy, did this place ever give people stuff to adjust to. ]
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Both. It’s part of my job, but I want the people I’m helping to be okay. Whether that’s just them being more confident, or something more than that, like helping them handle something buried a lot deeper than that.
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[ dodgy. ]
It'd be worth asking. Did we ask the leaders at all...?
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I didn't think to ask them about that part specifically. And I got kind of busy over the weekend and haven't had a chance. Maybe I'll ask Phoenix if they're not mad at me.
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Hmm. I’ll try and remember to ask them before next week. Especially if this does happen again. [ … ? ] Why would they be mad at you? Because of the jail thing?
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Maybe mad isn't the right word. I need to text them soon to at least apologize.
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[ briefly she wonders if the goat jailbird apologised to goat, and decides independently he did not. ]
I don’t think they’d be mad enough to hate you or anything. But it never hurts to apologise.
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Nico, if it's worrying you it's not stupid.
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Yeah, but if you're worrying about this, as well as all the other things you're going to burn out. You don't have to do and worry about all this by yourself, you know.
[ binch she has YEARS of experience with dark haired idiots who try and take on everything alone. ]
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anyway he focuses on giving himself a little more of a push to swing. ]
And now you're starting to sound a lot like my doctor. [ faintly amused, and obviously kidding. ] But I know. It's...a thing I'm still working on.
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she does not actually slam her crayon drawn diploma on any table, it doesn't exist.
she does however stare back like yeah? and she's domina and she hasn't tied up a single person the whole time she's been here. break the mould, kiddo. ]
I do have mental health support functions. But good. It's always baby steps.
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Tama, I've talked about my mental health more in the last six months than I have in my entire life. It's kind of exhausting. [ yeah that happens when you have ptsd anxiety depression and etc, nico. ] I don't know if addressing it more here is going to help with what we're trying to fix about our situation. At least when it comes to the small stuff.
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[ you talk it out. a lot. ]
Maybe not, but even just so you don't exhaust yourself into an impromptu, awkwardly timed nap, you can grumble at some of us if you're not feeling it.
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Maybe I like my head being disorganized. [ dry. ] Why does that sound more like a targeted experience instead of just an example...?
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I'm just saying, most of my impromptu, awkwardly timed naps have nothing to do with my mental stability. [ he does not clarify. but: ] ...the talking part isn't really easy, you know.
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I know. It’s one of the hardest things to do — no one wants to feel vulnerable in front of strangers, or people they want to support.
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[ no they are very different, stop that. ] Oh wait, seriously— like— [ she waggles her fingers ] Spooky scary skeletons, that kind of thing?
[ it’s october. ]
It sounds like you’re trying though. If you know it’s tough.
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...it isn't fair not to try in this instance. But trying here with people I've just met seems a little...weird? We all barely know each other still. I don't want anything used against us.
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... Osteokinesis? I was kinda joking about the spooky scary skeletons thing. [ he's just a sleepy lil guy. ]
Fair. But we are going through a situation I don't think many people will ever even think of. Trauma bonding's a real thing.
If you're not comfortable talking to us though, you're not on your own here, right? And while they're a stranger too, your leader's a pretty safe bet I think. They have an invested interest in you being safe and healthy, given you're currently their charge.
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anyway it's not like tama is wrong about any of that given the way nico is watching her, but instead of agreeing just yet there's a low hum of thought. ]
You're a pretty big advocate of this mental health thing aren't you? [ interesting. again she is not wrong but now he's more curious about that instead of continuing to hint about how mentally unstable he can get sometimes. ]
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[ aha. ]
It's important!
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[ he is very normal. but he continues to think this over. ]
...it's important to the people you're trying to help, or to you?
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Both. It’s part of my job, but I want the people I’m helping to be okay. Whether that’s just them being more confident, or something more than that, like helping them handle something buried a lot deeper than that.
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