PC: ACE 💀

[resumed]

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[selfimmolation]

You don't have to.

[ he knows why nico hates using them, so. ]

... Yeah? I didn't really read what she wrote in there.

[resumed]

And you shouldn't have to have a captive audience for your own death again. [ pointblank. ]

...she just said you were both awake and more or less fought to the death. Which is probably the only fair way to do this when both of our teams needed a kill.

[selfimmolation]

[ he looks away ]

... I had the advantage. I knew I did. [ he turns his hand into fire ] But I couldn't bring myself to finish her off until my fire ran out and she nicked me.

[ there's a sigh ]

I meant to tell you guys after.

[resumed]

[ he watches the flames for a little bit. ]

Well yeah, because you don't actually want to hurt people here. I already knew that. [ looking at ace's hand is actually the first time he's bothered to look up. ]

And I never thought you had an intention of hiding it. We just have to go through these stupid trials for...whatever reason. A faulty idea of justice. [ ... ] If anything, blame the note pushing us to do all of this.

[selfimmolation]

... I got another one. That's why... I really was going to wait. I wasn't lying to you guys.

[ but Stuff Happened. also his fire doesn't work in jail but this is my pc i do what i want he turns it off ]

I didn't have to do it. I could've chosen not to. That's why... I didn't want anyone else taking the blame for me.

[resumed]

Ace, I know. [ he's still leaning against the bars. ]

...what do you mean though? What actually happened?

[selfimmolation]

I just... got a note. It implied I either killed now, or my entire team's worlds were forfeit. Something like that. [ he sighs a little ] ... Probably it wasn't true, but.

[ but. he shrugs ]

[resumed]

[ ... ]

...but it'd be worse not to believe it and have something actually happen. Just like with all the other notes. [ ... ] That's...you really didn't even have a choice then.

[selfimmolation]

... There's always a choice, Nico. [ even if it doesn't seem like it, ace knew he was making one. just like he knew he was making one when he decided to not hide his murder at all. ]

[resumed]

...I know, but at the same time I don't think it's a real choice to force someone's hand with threats. Of course you could have chosen not to act. But then it's damning whole worlds and people instead of just one. But by going through with it...this happens.

[ so it's not fair to anybody. it's not fair to sigrun, it's not fair to ace, it's not fair to them who ace and sigrun are leaving behind...nobody. ]

[selfimmolation]

... Maybe. Maybe none of the threats were even real. [ it's tiring to even admit it, and he sort of breathes out lowly ] There weren't any good choices, but I still made mine knowing the consequences.

[ to himself and to others. which is why-- ]

I'm sorry.

[resumed]

[ ...he just pulls his knees to his chest, resting his chin on them to look at him again. ]

We don't get the luxury of good choices here. And the ones we do get to make...[ are so easy to lose. but he doesn't finish that sentence, something old and tired in his expression. ] What're you sorry for?

[selfimmolation]

... I know I hurt all of you guys by doing this.

[resumed]

[ ............ ]

...I'm not sure what would hurt worse. Losing you like we lost Reigen, or losing you tomorrow like we're going to.

[selfimmolation]

... Well, I don't think Sigrun ever really had a chance against me. [ THAT'S RUDE AND CONCEITED, but; ] I think the method isn't what matters. It's just not having someone around that hurts.

[resumed]

[ he looks past ace at a point on the wall. ]

I can't say one way or another. [ about fighting. but... ] ...lucky me, I've had practice. So I can at least...try to help everyone tomorrow.

[selfimmolation]

...

[ cool he just looks sad and guilty about it, looking down ]

...I... Nico. [ a little helplessly. ]

[resumed]

[ he seems to realize he overstepped that one because he's immediately backtracking. ]

Sorry, no, that's not...I didn't mean it like that. I just meant...it'll be really hard on some people and I...

[ well no nothing he says is going to be good, he's just fumbling instead. ]

[selfimmolation]

[ ACE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT'S WORST BEING TOLD IT'S GONNA BE HARD ON SOME PEOPLE OR THAT NICO IS GOING TO SAY IT ISN'T HARD ON HIM

oh man what if it isn't..... no not the time worms ]

... I get it.

[resumed]

[ there's a long pause. ]

...I don't want you to go. [ just to make that clear. ] But I don't want you to feel guilty about it when your hands were tied.

[selfimmolation]

... I'm a pretty messed up guy. [ he admits that softly, looking at the floor like it's a confession ] Even though I should feel guilty, and I don't want you guys hurt... Knowing you'd want me around enough to be upset by it, it kind of makes me happy.

[resumed]

[ he ends up laughing, even if it sounds watery and kind of broken. ]

You're such an idiot. You and Reigen both, I don't understand how either of you could ever think we wouldn't want you here with us. Or what you actually mean to people. It's not like we aren't all pretty messed up either. [ ... ] It's exactly why it hurts though, yeah.

[selfimmolation]

... He called me out on it, you know. A few times. And in his letter. [ hypocrisy!!! ] You guys... have been the best part of this place. You know?

[resumed]

Like I said, he's stupid, too, for never fully realizing how much we needed him. [ ... ] His letter was...hard to read, but I think he wanted to make sure we all knew in the end. But it's the same for me. This place is...awful and I want to go home but...you guys have been worth it. Figuring everything out, trying to find a way together. I didn't think...I'd meet other people who understood the way you guys do.

[ and that's maybe why it's so hard now. ]

[selfimmolation]

... You'll get home. I know you guys will figure it out.

[ because he thinks will and nico definitely, definitely deserve to go home. but. ]

A bunch of misfits ending up together... Pops would probably find it funny. It's the same thing he did.